Well...I start out every post with "Well", thats just kind of funny. I haven't really had a serious post yet, all of my blogs have been about movies, or tv shows or other random stuff that I enjoy but do not have much depth. This one is going to be my first attempt at a serious blog but I am not holding my breath because it may very well end up talking about a movie. Probably Garden State, because this is what I am watching right now as I am writing. If you have never seen this movie, it is very interesting. I enjoy it but afterwards when the movie is over I am always left feeling confused, depressed, or worthless. Yet I still always really like watching the movie. This is going to attempt to lead into my seriousness. And this is where it may stop making sense if it was making sense before. Isn't it funny how movies or music can manipulate your mood so easily.
I always get so bothered when I think about all of my aspirations or plans that I have for myself yet I always fail. I fail regularly on a daily basis. This gets so frustrating when you try and try to obtain these goals and fail time after time but are you really trying your hardest or are you just trying just enough to fool yourself and others to think that you really want these things. Then eventually after fooling yourself for a long enough period of time you actually start accepting the daily failures, and you quit trying to accomplish your goals and just go on your day and your life not aspiring for anything. You become a walking failure who doesn't even have the will to accomplish what you started out actually wanting. As you wake up every day starting out having these plans or goals, but most of the time by the end of the day you have either failed or forgot what you originally set out to do. But every night I am still able to lay in bed and think about the upcoming day and say to myself, I can change the cycle, I can do better... I could have done better. Where am I going with this, I have no idea but it just gets frustrating and isn't it funny when you look at someone else and think that they have it all together, they don't fail, but really they are laying in bed thinking the same thing as you night after night. Well...I guess thats it, not much to say, maybe you understood what I am talking about, but then again I'm not sure I understand. This verse helps me, 2 Cor. 5:17 "Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!" Have A Great Day! Sorry its so long.
Tribute to a Dear Friend: Glen Paden
5 months ago