Sunday, April 29, 2007

For Serious...

Well...I start out every post with "Well", thats just kind of funny. I haven't really had a serious post yet, all of my blogs have been about movies, or tv shows or other random stuff that I enjoy but do not have much depth. This one is going to be my first attempt at a serious blog but I am not holding my breath because it may very well end up talking about a movie. Probably Garden State, because this is what I am watching right now as I am writing. If you have never seen this movie, it is very interesting. I enjoy it but afterwards when the movie is over I am always left feeling confused, depressed, or worthless. Yet I still always really like watching the movie. This is going to attempt to lead into my seriousness. And this is where it may stop making sense if it was making sense before. Isn't it funny how movies or music can manipulate your mood so easily.
I always get so bothered when I think about all of my aspirations or plans that I have for myself yet I always fail. I fail regularly on a daily basis. This gets so frustrating when you try and try to obtain these goals and fail time after time but are you really trying your hardest or are you just trying just enough to fool yourself and others to think that you really want these things. Then eventually after fooling yourself for a long enough period of time you actually start accepting the daily failures, and you quit trying to accomplish your goals and just go on your day and your life not aspiring for anything. You become a walking failure who doesn't even have the will to accomplish what you started out actually wanting. As you wake up every day starting out having these plans or goals, but most of the time by the end of the day you have either failed or forgot what you originally set out to do. But every night I am still able to lay in bed and think about the upcoming day and say to myself, I can change the cycle, I can do better... I could have done better. Where am I going with this, I have no idea but it just gets frustrating and isn't it funny when you look at someone else and think that they have it all together, they don't fail, but really they are laying in bed thinking the same thing as you night after night. Well...I guess thats it, not much to say, maybe you understood what I am talking about, but then again I'm not sure I understand. This verse helps me, 2 Cor. 5:17 "Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!" Have A Great Day! Sorry its so long.

3 comments:

Casey said...

good post...it may be confusing to some...but i followed...and i concur...

gene pensiero said...

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interesting post. i've never seen Garden State.

found a quote for you...

"Life is a process of becoming, a combination of states we have to go through. Where people fail is that they wish to elect a state and remain in it. This is a kind of death."

i doubt the person who said this was speaking of a relationship with Jesus, but how wonderful that we can rest in the promise that God will continue to perfect us, grow us, establish us, shape us, His people, day after day, moment after moment.

though thoughts of failure might visit you at night as you go to sleep, take comfort in this:

Through the Lord's mercies we are not consumed, Because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness. Lamentations 3.22-23

O Lord, be gracious to us; We have waited for You. Be their arm every morning, Our salvation also in the time of trouble. Isaiah 33.2

So they gathered it (manna) every morning, every man according to his need. Exodus 16.21a


blessings and maranatha

Jeni Lee said...

Arso...I loved it. Now you're making me think a lot. Especially along the lines of we think everyone else has it all together, when in reality, they lay down at night truly going through and stuggling with some of the same thoughts we have ourselves.